An insatiable monster crept into my life unnoticed. Seventeen years old, I lost fifteen pounds by following a food plan and counting calories. I looked terrific and received compliments and praise. I wanted more. My body size became an obsession. Soon after, fad dieting, binging and purging, and excessive exercise became my choice of weight control. Immediately, my life spiraled completely out of control for two decades, until . . .
How many of your recent conversations have been about food, dieting, body size, or exercise?
Would you say you're a slave to food?
Do you look in the mirror and see “repulsive,” “fat,” “stupid,” even though friends tell you that you're one of the most intelligent and beautiful persons they know?
There is one common obsession women have: to lose weight quickly with the least possible physical activity and pain required.
From movies and TV to magazines and online advertisements, it’s impossible not to be bombarded by messages and images glorifying the unattainable skinny bikini body. When you’re told repeatedly that you’re not good enough unless you lose 10 or 20 pounds, you start to believe it. I did. In this culture, the pressure to shed fat—at any cost, and the compulsion to compare our bodies to models and celebrities is great.
Emotional eating is an epidemic and can be very serious.
Meet Author Kimberly Davidson in this 4 minute book trailer
Did you know you don’t have to be anorexic, bulimic, or a compulsive overeater to be an emotional eater? While millions of people are struggling with diagnosable eating disorders, many more are trapped in a “disordered” eating pattern. If you’re on a roller coaster with food, dieting, exercise, weight and body size, or are just an occasional binger or purger, then this information is for you.
In my experience, most people’s difficulty managing weight goes beyond simply needing to find the perfect diet or plan. There are numerous aspects of our lives that play into our health and weight. And God has specific processes for setting people free. Anybody suffering from unhealthy eating patterns, negative body image, and low self-esteem needs unconditional love and acceptance, and the power of truth and forgiveness.
If you knew you could be free of the hold that either food, or body image, or some other hidden addiction has on you, would you be willing to go on a life-changing journey of mind, spirit, and body renewal?
If you said yes, then you’re going to want to get a copy of the Second Edition of I’m Beautiful? Why Can’t I See It?
This book is a 12 week healing study. If you say yes to God, it will be effective. You will:
Learn to change negative thinking and create healthy habits.
Be given biblical strategies to manage life without using food for comfort and coping.
Learn to confront difficult emotions, rather than starving or stuffing them.
Jesus said, “No servant can serve two masters” (Luke 16:13). He declared, “I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty.” (John 6:35)
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Second Chances (the author's story)
An insatiable monster crept into my life unnoticed. Seventeen years old, I had repeatedly been called fat, and I felt fat and ugly. So I lost fifteen pounds by following a food plan and counting calories. I looked terrific and received compliments and praise. I wanted more. My body size became an obsession. Soon after, bulimia became my choice of weight control when I figured out I could eat everything I wanted and still lose weight. Immediately, my life spiraled out of control.
Deep down, I knew I needed help. Too ashamed to ask, I chose to read multitudes of self-help books. I worked in the healthcare field and gleaned as much medical information as I could. But nothing worked. An invisible monster had taken control.
Then I met God and came to understand I couldn’t take my life back without being empowered by Him to give me consistent strength, love, and truthfulness. I also learned that God wasn’t going to intrude on my will. He gave me the gift of choice. If I wanted His power in my life, I had to ask for it . . . and really want it.
The Bible says we have to make a choice: to walk with God and become dependent on Him, or not. I chose God over this invisible monster. He took me on a journey through the Bible and started to mend me—spiritually, physically, emotionally, and relationally.
God gradually started changing me from the inside out. He spiritually implanted a new heart and new spirit in me (Ezekiel 36:26). As I overcame my shame and fearfulness, my self-image and worth began to improve. I discovered truth. I healed. I recovered.
As a Christian I define recovery as, “a process of transformation through which individuals improve their health and wellness, live a Christ-directed life, and strive torecover God’s plan for their lives.” There are no shortcuts. God can heal us but we still must develop our own life skills and take in spiritual food in order to grow and heal.
God told me through His Word (the text of the Bible is referred to as Scripture or God’s Word) that I’m a beautiful, loved, one-of-a-kind woman. Unlike what the pop culture presents, the Bible always tells the truth. God gave me exactly what I needed, when I needed it. I no longer live in bondage because in His Son, Jesus Christ, bondage is destroyed! Today when I look in the mirror and I see FAT, a different kind of FAT—Faithful And True to my Lord.
God, you did everything you promised, and I’m thanking you with all my heart. You pulled me from the brink of death, my feet from the cliff-edge of doom” (Psalm 56:12–13, Msg).
I’m Beautiful? Why Can’t I See It? has already proven to be effective. The week by week design is intended to provide a pathway without dictating every individual step. As each person is different, each journey will be different.This 12 week healing study can be used as a personal resource or in groups.
Psychologist Gregory Jantz, Founder of The Center of Counseling and Health Resources in Seattle, Washington, and best-selling author of Hope, Help, and Healing for Eating Disorders, wrote the foreword. One statement he made: “Woven throughout this book is an emphasis and reliance upon God’s word. Kimberly recognizes how powerful it’s when God speaks truth into our lives and allows us to understand and truly believe it does apply to us. These are more than just refrigerator verses for Kimberly—they are the Words of Life and her desire is to share them with others.”
Remember, you are not alone! God bless you on your journey of radical transformation.
Table of Contents
Heal Your Hungry Heart
Week One: Discover the Character of God
Week Two: Pursue Perfection God’s Way
Week Three: Why Do I Hurt?
Week Four: The Beauty of Truth
Week Five: Your Mind is the Battlefield
Week Six: Anger Is a Choice
Week Seven: Freedom through Forgiveness
Week Eight: Choosing Peace over Control
Week Nine: The Adventure of Self-Discovery
Week Ten: Heal for Life
Week Eleven: Nourish and Nurture God’s Temple
Week Twelve: The Road to Damascus
Final Words from Kimberly
A: Group Leader’s Guide
B: How to Write a Powerful Testimony
C: Find a Healthy Church Community
Praises and Testimonials
“Read this book. It can and will be a life changer . . . Kimberly knows firsthand how to guide you through a healing journey of hope.” ~ Gregory Jantz, Ph.D, Certified Eating Disorder Specialist, Author, Hope, Help and Healing for Eating Disorders, and Director, The Center for Counseling and Health Resources, Inc., Edmond, Washington
“The hope in God runs throughout the book like a stream of refreshing water. Kimberly’s understanding of the specific struggles is obvious and supportive.” ~
Laura Roberts, Psy.D, Cornerstone Clinical Services, PC, Portland, Oregon
“We really love this study. It has blessed us so. It is very well thought out and we believe life changing. The residents really love the class and wish it were longer. We have a Healthy Eating group of staff that wants to use this study too!” ~
Jerri Ann Salvato, Lead Program Implementer, Shepherd's Door for Women and Children, Portland, Oregon
“Motivating the reader to journal their thoughts and be reflective is wonderful. Many women never get to psychotherapy and this is the next best replacement.” ~
“I never have committed to a Bible study before. I have always looked for other spiritual books to answer my void. Today, His Word, through this study gave birth to an enriching under- standing and way to heal. I am amazed that I had no anxiety or desire to eat more than I did. This would not have happened if I wasn’t doing this work. This book works. I can say that with all my heart as I am learning to lessen my mind with me.” ~
“Your devotional study has been encouraging me and helping me place God at the center of my recovery from my eating disorder. It’s the hardest thing I have ever done, and I am grateful that I found it.” ~
“As someone who has suffered from an eating disorder for over twenty years, my bookshelves are full of self-help books. This book is different. Kimberly Davidson shares the only way to true healing: a relationship with God through his son, Jesus Christ. I've learned through this long journey that only God can fill those dark places in our lives. His Spirit will fill you as food never can. The result will be peace and joy rather than the shame and guilt food causes. Read this book and let God speak to you through it. I cannot recommend this book highly enough.” ~ Hannah R.
“After dealing with an eating disorder for most of my life and admitting it to no one, even myself most of the time, a friend and mentor finally convinced me to join a new bible study (using this book) taking place at church. This book, and the study that took place surrounding it, transformed my life. Kimberly Davidson writes from a place of personal knowledge and allows her own failings to be on display for all to see so that others may learn how to deal with the pain that so often accompanies an eating disorder. Her writing is a perfect example of 2 Corinthians 1:3-4. She allowed the comfort she received from God while dealing with her own eating disorder to flow through her words into the lives of many other hurting women.” ~
“I began reading this book about after struggling with an eating disorder and body image issues for 13 years. I had been filled with hopelessness. I thought I would never be through with this or “normal.” Now, every morning, I pick up the book and my bible and my heart is filled with hope. God is really using the book to speak truth into my life.” ~ Nicole T.
“Absolutely amazing book! Extremely helpful in terms of dealing with eating disorders with God's strength instead of one's own strength.” ~
“This study was exactly what I had been searching for and needed in my recovery. I now see that having faith in God and turning to Scripture is the only way to get better and live a meaningful life. Kimberly has helped me and countless of others who are struggling with eating disorders.” ~ Leanne K.
“Amazing, life changing book. I highly recommend this to everyone who has ever struggled with addiction or self-image issues. Be prepared for God to do a major work in your life if you truly open up and take an honest look at yourself.” ~Missy L.
“I bought various Christian self-help books, but this one touched me more than any of the others. I’ve been struggling with low self-esteem and bad eating habits for over 5 years. This book opened my eyes and helped me see things in a different perspective. Amazing book!” ~
“The study is great. It helps me a great deal to have someone bring the Bible to me in terms of my eating disorder, and to draw out the relevant teachings and verses. It’s been very helpful.” ~ Elaine S.